You deserve to look in the mirror every morning and see someone that, though not perfect, isn’t trying to be. You deserve to walk past the billboards and commercials that show staged-and-Photoshopped images of what and who you are supposed to be and laugh at them, secure in the knowledge that you are wonderful because you arereal. You could imagine that the models themselves must be so much greater in person when not reduced to a pose and a cheesy tagline — maybe they are at their most beautiful when just stepping out of the shower, hair still wet, and excited to go eat a good breakfast — but you don’t compare yourself to them. You deserve to love your body simply because it is yours, and it is capable of so much.
You deserve to look past whatever is displayed on the outside, whatever code lingers on your skin to be read by society and neatly organized into some compartment about who you “are” — fat, thin, ugly, tall, awkward — and be even more in love with what exists within you. Of course you may have moments in which you regret past mistakes, or dislike a character flaw that you know you need to work on, or feel the rope of maturity tugging at your ankle saying “Come on, catch up,” but it doesn’t define you. You deserve to appreciate all of the wonderful qualities you bring to the table, instead of relentlessly harping on yourself for the categories in which you fall just a tiny bit short.
You deserve to look for love, if that’s what you want, and be ready to accept it when it comes your way. You might find yourself overwhelmed and even briefly in disbelief when you realize that someone actually loves you for who you are and wants nothing more than to be with you, but you should be able to embrace that unconditional caring with your own. You should wrap your arms around them and cover them with your whole body — flesh, bone, the ugly little cracks and scars that they can’t stop kissing — and know that you are a good person, who is worthy of such joy. You deserve not to question every person who gives you a compliment or tells you that you’re wonderful, not to wonder if they have some ulterior motive, or if you are somehow the victim of an elaborate prank. You should realize that you are worth loving because you are ready to love back.
Its been 40 days. Sabi nila kailangan na talaga kita ilet-go, for your the peace of your soul. Pero ang sakit sakit pa rin talaga. Pag naalala ko yung mga momments na feeling ko tayong dalawa lang mgkakampi sa mundo. Yung mga momments na walang katapusang kwentuhan natin, pagtatalo minsan at higit sa lahat yubg mga time na napakathoughtful mo sa akin. Inang, mahal na mahal kita. At sana sapat na napasaya at napagsilbihan kita. You’ll be forever in my heart. Im so thankful to have you. Pero ganun siguro talaga, as sabi mo nga sa panaginip ko ” apo, hindi nman pwedeng habang buhay tyong magkasama”.
So now, im really offering you to God. May your soul happy and peace. Im letting you go.
I love you. Thank you for everything. Gasgas man na line “till me meet again!”
I love you inang. Mahal na mahal kita.
Its been 20 days since I lost you. No days had passed that my mind did’nt brought a memory of you. When I do, a tear still dropped off my eyes. Is it real? I’m still in pain of loosing you. I love you. And in my heart, you’re still here, with me.
Sa mga oras na to, alam ko masaya ka na inang. Kasama mo na si tatang, kuyang, tatay menes, kuyang nestor at higit sa lahat si God.
Pero inang, kaya ba kitang pakawalan? Ang taong pinagkakautangan ko kung ano at sino ako ngayon? Yung taong tumayong higit pa sa ina sa akin? Yung taong nakakaintindi sa lahat ng pinagdadaanan ko? Yung taong naghubog sakin para maging mabuting tao? Yung nagturo sakin magsimba, at higit na makilala ang Poong Lumikha? Yung taong pinilit magpakatatag at palusugin ang kanyang katawan para masubaybayan pa kaming mga apo nya. Yung taong hindi naging makasarili para ibigay lahat ng mayroon sya. Kaya ko ba? Ang hirap, pero kailangan. Inang, pinapakawalan na kita, namin. Malaya ka na.
Malaya ka na sa pagiging isang mabuti at mapagkalingang ina, inang, kapatid, kamag-anak at kaibigan. Malaya ka na sa pangungulit ng iyong mga anak at apo. Sa pamimilit namin na maligo at magpalit ka ng damit araw-araw. At higit sa sa lahat, malaya ka na sa lahat ng karamdamang iyong nararamdaman. Doon wala ka ng diabetes. Makakain mo na lahat ng gusto mo.
Inang, mamimiss ka namin. Mamimiss namin yung mga oras napaka-kj mo. Yung mga oras na nanununuod kaming mgpipinsan ng tv, lalabas ka at sasabihing patayin nyo na yan at wala namang nanunuod. Yung mga oras na ngbebell ka na dinig sa buong compound. Yung mga oras na magyaya ka magpacheck-up, nun pala gusto mo lang kumain ng palabok at chicken joy sa jollibee,o kaya’y eat-all-you-can sa chick boy. Yung mga oras na galit na galit ka pag bungis-ngisan kami ng bungis-ngusang magpipinsan. At higit sa lahat, mamimiss naming mga apo mo yung taong unang una naming pinunpuntahan tuwing uuwi kami mula sa pgttrabaho sa ibang lugar. Wala na silang dadalan ng mansanas. At higit sa lahat, mamimiss namin yung pinipilahan naming lahat na pagmanuhan tuwing pasko at iba pang okasyon.
Inang, napakabuti mo, lalo na sa aming magkakapatid. Utang namin sayo kung anu kami ngayon at kung anuman ang maabot namin. Salamat sa pagsubaybay sa amin at pagpuno sa responsibilidad ng aming magulang. Napakalaki ng utang na loob namin sayo.
Ikaw na, the best ka. Habang buhay kang mananatili sa aming mga puso. At habang buhay kaming mgiging proud na ikaw ang “inang” namin. I will alway’s be inang’s girl.
Takot na takot ako ngaun. Takot na mawala yung taong kadugtong na ng buhay ko. Yung taong mas hinigitan pa ang papel ng nanay ko sa buhay ko. My best friend since birth. My ever-loving and supportive grandmother. Inang, laban tayo. Unti pa. Ang dami ko pang pangarap na ibigay at ipadanas syo. Please God heal my grandmother.
- Know the meaning of beauty in your words. Define what you meant by the word beautiful. How beautiful the word beautiful is or what makes them beautiful to you.
- Boost your self-confidence. Don’t worry about the people around you or what they say about you. Be confident in every actions you’ll do and prove that you can do anything.
- Walk like a fashion model. Chin up and stand straight. Walk like a model in a runway. Walk with confidence as if it’ll be the final walk you’ll do. Ignore rude comments from someone who doesn’t think you’re beautiful. Just ignore it, walk and go on.
- Enhance and understand the meaning of “inner beauty”. There are lots of girls out there who’s beautiful in their own ways, but beauty is uncommon. One bad deeds you do and you’ll see the difference. Being mean towards other will make you ugly. Because that kind of beauty doesn’t last. Because inner beauty is what matters most. It doesn’t fade, doesn’t wrinkle or even gray.
- Don’t let your insecurities ruin you. Being insecure will lead you to nothing. Don’t let that matter make you blind. Because insecurities will make you ugly.